Haven't been on here for a while, I probably should do more often though. Recently I've graduated from my foundation degree in Interactive Media Development and I've decided that this is it for the time being; not going back to education for at-least a year unless it's laid back, well organised and doesn't last a fucking year or two. Honestly it was stressful, the people who were meant to help organise the course kept screwing up, the building was hotter than the sun, the feeling of claustrophobia was inevitable and I had to study/research more information than my brain could process. Keep in note I also have Dyspraxia which made everything even harder to deal with; terrible organisational skills, poor balance, depression and anxiety leading to physical illness and my brain needing longer study time to process information.
Talking about my Dyspraxia, I was looking for a cure recently. There is no cure for Dyspraxia, I've tried looking everywhere but I'm having trouble finding absolutely anything. All I find are bricks of texts and information of childhood development; the best thing people can come up with is to suggest you get tested by a professional, what the hell is that meant to do? Make you realise, accept, and shut the fuck up? Honestly, I've even begun seeking information on connectedness between Dyspraxia and any sort of psychic activity, or anything that is beneficial that I can read just to pick myself up out of the depression that I just have to deal with this lifelong condition. The reason I think there could be benefits in mental performance other than than what people consider the norm is because Dyspraxia is a neural development disorder and is on the Autistic Spectrum, and those with Autism have an enhanced ability to perform other forms of mental activity due to their brain putting its power elsewhere, this will explain why people with Autism have less awareness in their surroundings and also have problems with speech; they have literally been developed with an altered brain-function, it's also why some people theorise that it would be morally wrong for professionals to remove Autism in patients if it were possible.
However, I have noticed that something (maybe non-technical) is beneficial in my personality. When I have an interest in a specific area, I will research it non-stop, even if I lose sleep over it. This is why I can probably give you a lot of advice about lucid dreaming or astral projection, even though I've never experienced these things due to my physical side-effects in Dyspraxia. I also used to be interested in David Icke and looked up much of his material on YouTube, but eventually I went off him after the information he shared made me anxious; he offered no cure to the problem other than telling people to focus their heart chakra on the athletes during the opening ceremony of the 2012 Olympics, as satanists have planted devices that induce electromagnetic signals to alter what I'm guessing are the brainwave frequencies of athletes (the entrainment of the brain being a real thing, look up binaural beats and isochronic tones).
I'm not sure what else to talk about to be honest, this was really just a thoughtful vent at various strains in my life recently. I would talk about why Facebook has bugged me recently too but I honestly think that people know the problems of it in-side out already, so no point me ranting. Maybe another time!
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